Hey everyone! Well, the past month has been CRAZY! I just recently returned from my month tour around New Zealand on the Kiwi Experience. This is a bus where you are travelling with foreigners from all over the world who are mainly right out of high school or in college...which I didn't realize. That, however, was totally fine. But the reality of what all went on during this tour is what made the journey very hard. For some reason, it never clicked that I might be the only Christian on this tour. I don't know why I never thought through this, but anyway. I know this time and experience was good for me, so for that I am thankful for it and I met some great friends along the way but to be very honest, it was a very difficult time. I have never felt so alone before and have never been so submerged into the party society. I saw things that for some reason, I never expected to see. I truly went through a period of shock during my time on this tour. The Lord really began to teach me so much and push me to not care so much what people think of me. He pushed me to be willing to speak of Him when the time was appropriate even if it meant losing the only friend I had gained. This journey was hard but good.
There is so much more that I learned while being there. Ya know sometimes it takes leaving to realize what you really want in life. That is definitely the case for me. Being in New Zealand for two months opened up my eyes to what I really long for...that is to settle down, buy a house, live close to family while my nieces and nephew are young, and discern my career calling. Therefore, as crazy as it may be, the desire to stay in New Zealand for the rest of the year was no longer appealing...not once I realized what I wanted. So, that being said, I am officially back in the States...specifically back to the good ole state of Mississippi! I have not a regret in the world for my decision. You live life once and you never know what you will learn until you take the step. Life is an adventure and I am anxious to see what is around the corner!
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Glad to have you back home. I know you don't regret your experience in New Zealand because it is probably what the Lord needed you to experience to get you to open your eyes and your heart to what your really wanted out of life. It wasn't anything that anyone could explain to you. Hope to see you in Gallman soon.
ReplyDeleteLuv ya,
Ms. Pat